Am I More Than You Bargained For Yet?  is not your typical psychology book. Blending raw storytelling with clinical insight, therapist Alexander McLeod brings readers inside the emotional chaos, vulnerability, and complexity of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Written by a former juvenile corrections officer turned therapist, the book offers a rare window into the inner world of emotional dysregulation, trauma, and identity disturbance. 

Where many books on BPD focus on individualized symptom descriptions, Alexander McLeod brings a unique empathy and realism to his varying portrayals of clients over their developmental life course. Blending fiction and psychology, this book gives readers an intimate and often unsettling look into how the disorder can take shape and evolve over time. His belief is that when clients are identified as having BPD, the negative realities of the disorder are acknowledged and often take precedence out of clinical necessity but tend to overshadow the full and complicated life experience of the individual person.

About the Author

Alexander McLeod is a therapist and adjunct professor specializing in BPD, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, and trauma-related conditions. With over a decade of experience across human service, correctional, and clinical settings, he is known for his mixed modalities, honest, and often humorous approach to mental health. 

Featured on the cover of IMPAAKT magazine as one of 2024’s Most Influential Mental Health Leaders, Alexander combines academic expertise with lived professional insight. A former martial artist and punk musician at heart, he describes himself as “violently mindful”—meeting clients with both compassion and accountability. Whether in the classroom, therapy room, or on the page, he’s dedicated to helping people feel seen—even in their darkest moments.